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I'm having a really kind of awesome week. I found my wedding dress. THE one. It's out of my price range, but thanks to a few very sweet friends and a wonderful fiancee, I've been convinced that I should go for it. It's so beautiful and everything I've ever wanted in a dress. I feel like a princess just looking at it. However, I will try on a couple of other dresses just to make sure that it is the dress of my dreams. I'm fairly positive it is though. I cried when I saw it in the wedding shoppe window. It will be mine. Oh yes. It will be mine.

I'm making significant progress on my school plans as well. I'm still planning on German Education, but it seems this will help me earn my way through grad school so in all reality, I should be teaching at the college level within the next 10 years. I know it seems far off, but I'm okay with that. I've always taken the scenic route when it comes to school anyways. I may not be able to do it the same way Paul (my brother) did, but he didn't have a family to worry about. The biggest thing I'm excited about it is that I may possibly (and that's a pretty damn big possibly) be able to get my study abroad credits at the Mozarteum in Salzburg and while I'm there get a certificate in Oratorio and Lieder. Oh my lord does that just get me all excited. Not just woo-we're-going-to-six-flags-excited, but omfg-I-may-pee-my-pants-excited. :) Oh let's hope!!!!

I went to my nurse practitioner for the first time since moving. She thinks I may have been misdiagnosed, which is a very easy thing to see. She's thinking it's not just a case of Major Depressive Disorder, but instead BiPolar II with ADHD. *shrugs* I guess it's alright so long as we get the medications right this time. I'm just getting kind of sick of being on meds and having to take them every damn morning and night.

Melancholy and the Infinite Sadness?

Hardly. I'm surprisingly happier than I've ever been in my life. I'm marrying my best friend and my soulmate in less than a year and since our relationship started, I've known love greater than I ever thought possible. The kind of love that I've only read about. Not just passionate flames that burn fast, but a steady love that is enduring.

I'm going back to school soon too for German education. I'm so excited about it and I know it will be exactly what I need to be doing until I can get back to grad school. It will happen, I just imagine it will be quite sometime before it does. I want Liam to have a childhood where he has friends. So I suppose that means I'll be staying put until 2022 when he graduates. It's only 10 years. Like a drop in a bucket and with the most wonderful family ever, well, its not the sentence it could have been with other people. But with Sara and Liam and possibly another child someday by my side, oh goodness the places I will go! :) it