I've done a lot of reading throughout my time as a sufferer of depression and no where have I found the immense amount of support that I have received online. I've discovered that some of my favorite people on the planet have issues very similar to mine and if ever they wanted to get together and have a drink, I would jump at the opportunity.
I often forget that depression tells horrible little lies that one by one deplete my defences and ability to stave off a severe bout of the illness. Little lies that at first are so ridiculous that I laugh at them initially, but slowly they start to make me take pause and consider them. Of course Liam and Sara are embarrassed and ashamed of me. Why wouldn't they be? Sara's family isn't really MY family. They only take pity on me. Etc etc etc. These are all lies that most of the time, I know are untrue. Right now though, I look at them and think, you know, I might not be too far off. I won't get in to all the gory details because, there's really no point and all it will do is perpetuate these lies that I'm trying like hell to ignore. Some days are so much easier than others. Some days I have to remember my many mantras that get me through these horrible moments.
You is kind.
You is smart.
You is important.
And when all else fails:
Just keep swimming.
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