Lump

Well, so much for my plan to move in with J next spring... I'm moving to Appleton instead in December. Mainly, the reason is that S's grandmother isn't doing too well and she's going to go and live with her. I also think this might just be a good idea. I keep hearing statistics about how couples who live together prior to marriage are more likely to get a divorce later on and I don't want that for J and I. I want us to work because I don't want to lose my best friend to stupidity and being headstrong. I'm just impatient about things sometimes. I'd like to think he gets that way too, but he's much more timid than I am. He thinks things through more and that's good for me. It balances my impulsiveness and that's such a good thing. I'm just hoping this is the right choice. I hate the idea of packing up and moving, only to have to pack up and move again. I want stability for L and moving over and over again is not going to be help me create that for him.

So, I'm taking a developmental psych class, and I've come to the conclusion that outside of the initial trust vs mistrust crisis of the Erikson model of development, I have failed all the stages/crises that have come my way. I'm a little horrified that I'm failing life thus far, but you know, I'm not exactly surprised. *le sigh*