The last few weeks have been wrought with complication and uncertainty. I'm not really a fan of either. In many ways the heartbreak was easier because at least then I knew what to expect. Now there's complication and so much uncertainty that I'm constantly wondering where I stand. Sure I have people in my life telling me to walk away, but at the same time I wonder if they've ever felt this way for anyone in their lives. I love these people and I know they're trying to protect me, but I have to see this through. I have to be able to look in the mirror and know that I tried and that I did everything in my power to make this work. Besides they don't have to live my life, I do and they don't worry about my happiness, I do. But the best part is I know how much they love me and that they'd do anything to protect me.
Most people have a strong family dynamic. I never really did so instead I've cobbled together this amazing motley crew of friends who are my family. Who says you can't pick your family? All they want for me is my happiness and health and for the most part I've got it. I have some great new additions and I'm so glad for them. They make life here so much more bearable. I've even got a fondue party scheduled for early Saturday evening so we all can hangout and chat. Sure it'll probably end at some pub with us playing pool and Jason bitching about the band, but what a fun dynamic. I love my Bohemian modge podge family.
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