christmas is all around

Holy hell was black Friday brutal. I was a fool and got up at 4am to go shopping... I did get everything I was looking for and that was nice. Boo is gonna have a fabulous Christmas. I'm pleased. Life overall has been going well. I'm lonesome a bit... I think whatever I had going on with S is over and done with. He made it pretty clear he really didn't want it so I'm letting him go. I love him, but I deserve more than what he can give me. It breaks my heart, but I have to stand up for myself. Isn't there some saying about if you love someone, set them free.... I guess that's what I'm doing and being all noble like. Too bad it feels like utter shit."loneliness is the human condition - cultivate it." And I so I do. I just wish.... a lot of things.