*sigh* I'm getting over him. Slowly, but surely. He managed to catapult me into the anger stage of grief over the holiday weekend. He texted me saying he hoped I had a good holiday. I sent back that I missed him. His response was "you are missed". Seriously?! That's not something you say to someone you spent nearly 7 months of your life with. That's something you say to a former co-worker who comes back to visit and you're the one screwed into doing their old job. Granted, now if I heard back from him an "I miss you" I would definitely wonder if he'd read this and was merely placating me. I don't need that. I just can't believe I was so wrong about him. The man I loved would have loved me enough to say it back. I'm completely floored. Thank God things ended when they did because if they had gone further, I would hate to see what else would have come out of the cracks. I still miss him, but I know now that I was completely wrong about him and that he was completely wrong for me.
In other news, I had a really nice holiday weekend. It was relaxing and fun and everything I needed it to be. I had friends over for barbeque and swimming and s'mores and we all had so much fun. Plus today I got together with C and J and the kiddos and had lunch. It was so nice just to surround myself with people who love me for who I am and accept me. I've needed that lately. It's been a nice weekend.
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