I'm having a day... I don't know what's with me. I'm depressed I think. I spent last night with J and it was fantastic. We're having a drawn out celebration of our 6 month-iversary, which is sweet of him. I'm just a little traumatized by the last month of our relationship, but I'm working on recovering from it. I love him, I guess now I'm just a little scared of it because I've felt just how strong it is and how much damage could be caused from it. A few days ago, the day where I thought we were going to be taking a break, I spent the entire afternoon sobbing. I wish I were embellishing, but I had people coming over to make sure I was okay. Thankfully, J wanted to talk and I went over there and we've been trying to fix things. I just didn't realize how much potentially losing him could hurt. I thought he had taken his break and was running with it... running away from me that is. I always known how much I love him, but I think that experience just drove it home.
As far as the depression goes? I have no idea why it's here. I'm just down today. I could sleep all day and not bat an eye at it. I didn't. I went about my life as I'm supposed to and even found time this afternoon to start work on embroidering a pillowcase I've been wanting to work on for a while. Now it's just a matter of seeing it through. I need to remember to do these things because they relax me and make me bearable to be around. It's part of why I blog. It gets all this crap out of me and is theraputic in a way. Well, in many ways.
I wish I had more to say, but to be honest, today writing is like pulling teeth.
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