Blue Lips

I've been asked out by three different men in the last week. I'm flattered. It's nice to feel attractive and wanted by the opposite sex, but instead all I feel is like a whore. I haven't done anything and I feel horribly because there is a part of me that wants to say yes. I know it's just because J and I are having a rough patch because of the pregnancy scare. We're trying to fix things and this just feels like the easy out. There's a part of me that also wants to tell J about these men wanting me and asking me to coffee or dinner, but it will accomplish nothing but make him jealous and I don't want that. I don't want him to think that every time a man talks to me, be he friend or stranger, that I'm going to leave him for that man because I won't. I love him and that's not changing any time soon. I guess I'm just shocked that these total strangers would find me this attractive. I've never had that before. *sigh* I'm beautiful in the eyes of strangers... I just pray that J sees that too.